I know it has been a long time since I posted and I apologize. SOOO much to tell so little space to write. HA HA! What a life... certainly and undeniably not the one I thought I would have but at the end of the day this is the hand I was dealt. I have the most amazing niece and nephew. They really do fill the void in my heart that I have. Maybe not all the way but alot of the way. Everytime I hear my niece say Auntie I swear to you I feel my heart actually stop beating for just a moment and my nephew who may only be 6 months but already has me wrapped around his fingers.... It has been 2 weeks without them because I have been sick and I miss them so much. My sister sends me a picture of them and I see how big they are already!!!! They are just beyond adorable. OK you get it I know Heart filled.
In the wonderful world of infertility nothing has changed. I have an appointment with my kidney specialist and that is where my focus is right now but thank you to all who have sent me messages and asked. I am so touched that people care.