Monday, October 12, 2009

Paging Dr Kelly....

Yesterday while driving home from my inlaws my husband and I were having a conversation about our past and regrets we have.  He said the funniest thing to me.  He said I should go back to school and become a Doctor.  Ya a 33 year old going through school to be a Doctor... thats almost funny.  IRONICALLY... that is one of MY regrets.  That I wasted so much time and money and having nothing so show for it... I would have much rathered gone to school and became a Doctor.  I would have loved to have done that... instead.  He asked me if I was a Doctor what my specialty would have been... What is really funny is I didn't even have to think about it.  I would want to work in the neonatology area with children... but anyone who knows me knows that would be the world's worst idea.... I tend to become attached to people so imagine how attached I would become to a sick baby or their families.  That would be bad but at the same time I would get to spend time with children and since I don't get to have that here at home....  I wonder... He also mentioned to me his regret... a job he always wanted.  Funny the conversations you have.  For the record I encouraged him to try his.. I think like most things in my life.. again its too late for mine.  Maybe I can be the world's oldest candy striper?  HA HA!  I sure wish this was one of the things that the psychic mentioned to me all those years ago.. instead of setting me up for a heartbreak and colossal waste of money and time.


Quiet Dreams said...

saying hi from the lushary...
I cannot relate to your loss--and I am so incredibly sorry, there are no words--but I can definitely relate to having one's younger sister pass you by. My younger sis has three beautiful girls. My older sis has a gorgeous girl and a beautiful boy. I'm the only one with none, and on the verge of a divorce from an abusive man. Sorry, this was not meant to be about me, just meant to tell you that I may know a piece of what you are going through.

I hope you are able to take care of yourself during this time--I imagine it must be really difficult. (((hugs)))

Pamela said...

I know the last thing you need from the internet is random a$$vice from someone, but it occurred to me that you might be interested in being a baby rocker. Many hospitals, especially large public hospitals, need volunteers to help with babies whose parents can't be in the NICU with them enough. So many studies have shown that physical contact early in life is critical for healthy development, but it can be a real challenge with babies who are off to a rocky start (pardon the pun).

Maybe you've aready considered this and there's a waiting list at your local hospital, or something. But it occurred to me that this would give you contact with babies, let you really help them in a meaningful way, and not require you to kill yourself for 8 years in med school first!


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